Birthday =)

So, I'm officially 23rd ..

Have been planning to celebrate my birthday at the place where I belong to, and I was back on Friday.

Went to Auto City with Zoe, Mango and others on my birthday eve =)

Before that, make up ourselves at Zoe's house. She passed me the gift that I have been waiting for.. After removing layer and layersss of wrapping papers, I was so surprised of the present =D

Before our drinking session at Tao, Zoe and I went for dinner at Sakae @ Auto City, that was my first time there. Nice environment, a very suitable place for our dinner. And then games and beers at Tao.. I had my wishes with the special cake prepared by Zoe. And then we went to Fuel too.. Felt myself really older till not really adapt to that "clubbing" feel there. We juz sat there and still, games and alcohol. Happenning nite with them, I was happy, hope they were, too =)

Woould like to express my thankssss to my dear fren-- Zoe, for that nite, everything... The gift and cake and the activities, juz as wat I like~ Remember our song 一个像夏天 一个像秋天. You are really the one who understands me the most.. Love you.. Muacksss.. Besides, of coz I wana thank my dear Mango, coz u will kill me if I don't =p Thank you for leaving your baby Amson and come for my bday celebration, thanks to your husband who accompany along too.. Thanks for your time... And Mr Eric, thanks and sorry if I created any problem to you...

Went back on the next day, my birthday.. Celebrate at home with my dearest family =D
Mum and grandma cooked delicious dinner and we had sweet moments at home. Ohoh.. I got very cute present from him too =) Thank you for coming, know you're busy and pressured with work and assignments... Jia You !


Feeling so contended, I had my beloved ones with me for this years' birthday. Ok... I should enjoy my home sweet home time now.. Gd nite~

沉淀了一整天的我，清醒了。。。

女人，原来还是喜欢被追求的。因为喜欢时时刻刻被珍惜，被在意，每一个小动作，都被留意的感觉。对于恋爱，我会百分百付出，也期待百分百的爱。或许我太自大了，那一百分的在乎早在恋爱开始时一点一点的流逝。

女人，就算怎么提醒自己，总还是笨的去期待。期待自己的恋爱不会变质，所以努力的为它保鲜。可惜越努力，越觉得气馁。曾经他告诉我，有多么后悔，那是我放弃了之后。遗憾，可是我们都回不去了。后来，我告诉自己不可以沉默的任由感情流逝，我很努力的让你知道我的心情，就算是微不足道的事，因为我不想它蔓延。可是这样的我很累。。。

一直把我的世界缩小，所以找不到真正倾诉的地方。好久，我没这么坦白交待过我的心情，不想要为了一件事的完美而不完美。我其实更爱自己，我的世界不应该是这样。

Special no more

So happen that a little thing has spoiled my night.

Something I thought to be very important and special but it was just forgotten at all. I'm so upset to feel that my effort is not appreciated, on this so called "nothing special".

Wondering why am I always the one who pays extra care and eventually disappoint myself. Arghhhh........ Why shud I being so frustrated?

Go away this silly feeling! I won't give a shit anymore

Happy *1014*

It’s a special day today *1014*. Happy Birthday to my dear boy friend XD

This year isn’t that surprising but hoping he would love my arrangement.

Happy Birthday ♥ Happy Always

Fighting

I'm trying and doing my best to go through.. It is so torturing but I know I'm heading to a better future...

Jia you LimJiaYing... Fight the fear!

Tough

It's been the toughest time I ever had these days...

I'm not the one I used to be, being surrounded with fear and pressures every single second. Back to the root, it's all because of my new job role. There are so much to catch up but the volume of work doesn't give me the chance to learn step by step. It keeps coming and accumulating. I can't breath!

I myself and people around tell me not to push myself so hard, but it's hard to control my emotion. Couldn't sleep well, work request flooded my mind. In fact I didn't really have rest. And, I know there was someone suffering like me. Thank you for the patient and care, and thank you for always be there when I really need you.

It's Friday now, time to relax. I guess I never come through this tough situation and as you said, it's a good experience. I would try my best to go through this hard time, like everyone did =)

By the way, I really miss YOU, my dear family...

Trust

How to change a person's feeling by juz telling him / her: "please don't feel that way"?

I wonder am I too emotional or self-indulgence drives me towards this difficult situation. I tried not to be so sensitive and emotional but indeed this is me! Can anyone tell me if he or she could not accept this part of me instead of feeling uncomfortable being with me? I wouldn't hope the closest one trying to keep a secret thought about me just to make the physical seems great. It is anyway dishonesty to me.

I used to have my very strong principle and thus my emotional expression is strong too. However I'm trying to be calm, or "pretending to be", yet my principle stays- against any dishonesty in any kind of relationship.

Once it's broken, trust fades, relationship breaks.